
so, i guess i am a patriot after all . . . i have hemmed and hawed my way through the car-buying process. "Is it smart? Is it foolish? Is this the best moment? Will another time be better? Is this the right deal? Used? New? . . . maybe, i shouldn't buy any car. . . " thus, the cognitive circle continued. 2 years ago, i thought i should purchase a car. . . but, i didn't want to in baltimore. . . (i thought it was likely to be ruined. . . )
so, i waited. and then, on friday, the moment came. . .
i went to carlisle with the greatest of negotiators and drove home with her. . . the new car. she is so clean inside that i NOTICE leaf-bits(and pick them out). she has speakers that work and all-wheel drive. . . and AIR-BAGS. . . and that new-car smell. (probably toxic but wonderful anyway)
I do have a moment of slight-panic once/day . . ."can i really afford this?" "was this wise, when so many people are losing their jobs?" "what if you lose your job?" "what if you can never travel or eat-out again because of this vehicle?"
and then i think. . . "what if you were in an accident on the turnpike in your old car. . . you would never eat-out again or travel either, because you would be dead . . . at least this way, you have a CHANCE."
and thus, the pessimist in me wins and brings consolation.

it's a little scary. . . but i can't stop smiling every time i drive her this week.
this morning, i waved at a co-worker way-too-enthusiastically-to-be-normal when driving by.
i hope you all get a chance to ride in her. :)