it is a monday evening . . . but, as i was leaving work tonight, i said to two co-workers, "have a great weekend." which caused them and me to pause. . .
work has felt like this lately. a monday feels like a friday. a tuesday feels like it should never have arrived, and so on.
last week, amongst my co-workers, there were 2 miscarriages and one suicide attempt. preceded the week before by two people out on disability for a few months and a "missing husband". i don't know if it is the economy or the weather or the moon . . . but it is feeling like too much.
and, it is time that i grow up and make some decisions about things like, BUYING A CAR. but, it is confusing. . . and there is no one person that will walk you through these things. i don't understand loans and bargaining and down-payments, and i'm not sure that i want to. i am not financial saavy, and it is a piece of me i am willing to let go. just like some people don't like art museums, i don't like figuring out future investments.
and there is nothing really wrong with my car. . . it just passed inspection again. but, it is on the 'fritz'. . . i can feel it. (although, i have been feeling that way for years. . .) it seems like the right time to invest. so, i just applied for a loan. . .because i was informed that this is the smartest way to walk into a dealership, with the money in hand. but it scares me. . . and apparently i only have 45 days to use the money. . . so, i better hope that a really great car at an unbelievable price appears soon. . . or else my credit rating turns sour. whatever. who even knows what that means anymore?
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Oh Alice, me either... I'm sorry you are having to deal with all this stuff... work and car and otherwise on your own... Feels like too much somehow. I hope at least the light adn color of spring lifts your spirits and those of your coworkers etc.
ReplyDeleteMuch love!